Digital Arts Service Corps - ctcvista vistalife nonprofits digitalvideo kids why? theanswer 42 http://digitalartscorps.org/taxonomy/term/396/0 en i am having a philosophical dilemma http://digitalartscorps.org/node/317 <p>Yeah, I&#39;m back. Danielle just reverse psychologized me into posting a new blog. She&#39;s good.</p> <p> Anyway, everything is going fine here, <em>technically</em>. I mean, I&#39;m surviving. I&#39;m eating pretty well. I have a good number of friends here in Portland. And PCM just hired some new part-time staff, all of whom are exceptionally cute. I even have a really great boss. What is there to complain about?</p> <p> Well...I guess I&#39;m just not sure what I&#39;m doing. Or why I&#39;m doing it. I became a CTC VISTA, because I wanted to feel like I was doing something good for the country. Giving something back. And I&#39;m not going to join the military, so this seemed like the way to go. So here I am, using my skizzills to help young people learn how to use video equipment. Which is fun and all...but I can&#39;t really see that I am doing any good whatsoever.</p> <p> Aren&#39;t there already more than enough wannabe directors and producers and movie stars already? Don&#39;t kids already get more than enough media in their lives, without me pushing even more on them? Why am I building an OLLIE website (and myspace page) when kids already spend too much time online as it is? I honestly feel like all I am doing is helping to provide kids with another cool way to get out of doing actual work. So what is the benefit? </p> <p> There are some (non-CTC) VISTAs just down the street at the African American Health Coalition, and I can&#39;t be sure (because for some reason they don&#39;t have any interest in talking to me), but it feels to me like they are doing a good service for the community. I mean &quot;Health&quot;! And &quot;African American&quot;! And &quot;Coalition&quot;! And what am I doing? I&#39;m helping kids watch tv. </p> <p>I&#39;m not trying to badmouth the program. I guess I just need reassurance that I&#39;m actually helping somehow. Because really, if I&#39;m not somehow benefiting the community, then why am I doing this? </p> http://digitalartscorps.org/node/317#comments ctcvista vistalife nonprofits digitalvideo kids why? theanswer 42 Wed, 29 Nov 2006 20:09:59 +0000 gariet cowin 317 at http://digitalartscorps.org